Frustration

The Webster Dictionary definition of "frustration" is /b : a deep chronic sense or state of insecurity and dissatisfaction arising from unresolved problems or unfulfilled needs.

When a person is placed in a situation in life that seems to spin in place and grind gears without any significant result, frustration arises. Massive frustration. One of the most frustrating things is not even realizing what those needs are, therefore leaving you without a clue where to begin to fulfill them. You're stuck with the feeling of insecurity based on needs you never knew existed. 

I'm in this place right now. Stuck in a grind of stagnation. Wondering where to turn, what to do, what need to fulfill. I've lost myself. Lost what drives me. Lost my purpose in life. 

Where before I would sit and think until my frustration turned to tears, today I decided to use frustration as my fuel to get shit done. Start anywhere. Complete a thought or an idea that will fulfill SOME unknown need. 

I realize I've done things in the past few months to start a transformation to bring myself back to ME and it's a slow process. I'm one of the most impatient people I know, and the fact that it's a slow process compiles my frustration even further. Maybe this is the universe's way of teaching me patience. I respectfully accept your lessons and will do my best to take things one step at a time.

Tomorrows word: tenacity.