TVMA

I am me. I'm funny. I'm prone to jealousy. I'm selfless. I can be the biggest bitch. I'm caring and giving. I have a short fuse. I'm the furthest thing from passive. I snap at times. I have my opinions and sometimes give them out without being asked for one. I have pet peeves. I listen. I'm argumentative. I get hurt easily. Sometimes I interrupt because I am impatient. I blame hormones for some things that have nothing to do with it. I'm moody. I put every single soul ahead of my own. The smallest things make me happy. I'm a giant child at heart. I curse like a fucking sailor and probably put some sailors to shame. I'm brutally honest even in times where all you need is a white lie. I judge sometimes. And sometimes I'm wrong. I trust my instincts and sometimes they are wrong. I've never learned how to walk away. I am me, and there isn't a fuck wad more I can offer to anyone or to me.

If I have a hard time accepting all this, then I can't blame anyone else for failing to accept me for me.

Life is one giant jig saw puzzle with a million pieces spread all around. Finding pieces that fit to make the whole picture right, is damn near impossible. But sometimes, you get a few pieces that make a big chunk so clear....and sometimes, you jam pieces into places you are certain they fit into, when clearly they don't. I play by my own rules and shove pieces where I see fit. Maybe it's time to stop jamming.

I just want one tiny part of the puzzle to have SOME clarity. One little chunk to help me see the entire picture. Takes patience and OCD. I have one of those down. Let's hope the picture is pretty at least.