Oh Shane

So of course, I have to do a blog about one of the characters on the L word because she is the epitome of what pisses me off in people...especially women.

If you watched the show, take this time to remember Shane....if you didn't watch the show, meet Shane:

Shane was born in Austin, Texas. Her mother, who was a drug addict, put her into foster care when she was nine years old. She never knew her father. Shane has known she was a lesbian from a young age, remarking that her very first crush was when she was eight, on a girl she met in the playground. She dropped out of high school and was once a prostitute on Santa Monica Boulevard. She pretended to be a boy in order to service gay men, but would never go farther than to give handjobs. She quit when one of her johns paid for her to get into hairdressing school. Shane was homeless for at least six months, and slept in her truck. Shane struggled with a drug problem, she also slept with between 1000 and 1200 people.----Translation: She is all kinds of fucked up. 

Cheats on every single person she ever tries to have a relationship with. Breaks every single person's heart and has no clue how to love or be loved.

She goes about life doing whoever and what ever she wants, claiming zero responsibility for her actions and running away from the trail of problems she leaves behind.

I always try to see people for who they truly are and disregard their "image" and what others perceive them to be. I feel that she's just a tainted soul that needs someone truly special to show her that she can be loved and can actually love in return. That nobody is perfect and people move on from fuck ups. I still think she just needed someone to take control and lead her to a relationship where she can remain faithful and happy.

There was a situation where Shane cheated on the only girl she was ever serious with and confessed to it only to later find out that her girlfriend went behind her back and revenge fucked someone.

Shane fucked up, no doubt. But in my mind what her girlfriend did goes even lower.

Shane admits to being a fuck up and not knowing how to love or to commit...but that's also how she expects everyone to feel about her. It's her cover. Her smoke screen.

I'm not saying I like who she is, I just get who she is and was holding my breath that maybe Carmen (her serious girlfriend) would be the one that made her see the other side.

She cheats because that's all she knows about "love". It's sad as fuck. With Carmen she WANTED to be loyal. But had no idea how.

I can say I understand who she is, but would never accept this in a friend, and especially in a girlfriend.

In the end, what pisses me off most about people like her is when their claim to freedom is "that's just how/who I am".

Um...NO.

If you are fucked up, and you know what it is that's wrong...FIX it. Don't just lay down and be a cheater because it's easier than keeping your hands to yourself.

Everybody has temptations, it's up to us to be loyal and exercise will power.

I know I get naive about people and somehow have more hope for them than even they have for themselves.

Sadly, reality: people don't change. It sucks for everyone they end up sucking into their mine field.