I did what?

I never got it, I still don't nor do I think I ever will.

The way other people think still shocks me.

Just when I think I've figured out who to trust and why I shouldn't keep my guard up, I get slapped in the face with reality....again.

If only I did half the things people assume about me, I'd be one bad-ass mother effer. But sadly, I really am this naive and good hearted.

What I still can't accept and figure out is if I should continue being the way I am...and if I'm even capable of changing who and how I am.

Either way, my self doubt and second guessing always kicks into high gear when someone throws a monkey wrench into my self esteem.

such is life.